[ A shake of his head, still a bit manic as the timer ticks down and he tries to think of all the things he wants to say, desperately cramming it into these five minutes. He knows Akechi won't kiss him, he knows he'll just leave instead, but he needs the time, he needs the time, he needs the time. ]
No, not just that.
[ He takes a breath and then spills into it. Speaking fast, of course. ]
We ain't friends, I know this. I know there's no chance of it happening and I'm sorry for that too, 'cuz during that last semester when you were with us, I got to see your actual personality and it wasn't bad. You were fun to be around and I liked the time I spent with ya in Mementos and everywhere else, when we were a team. I liked you.
So, when I got here, and when I saw that you were on the list of people here, you know what I felt? Excited. It's been a few months for me since ya disappeared after the shit with Maruki. I saw you here and I thought holy shit, you're alive. I thought we'd team up, figure this shit out together. You're so smart, you're so effin' smart, I knew that you'd figure out these matches easy peasy. And I thought I could help ya with that 'cuz I know how to talk to people, a bit more than you do. Genuine talk.
Then — then you pretended you didn't know me and you know how much that hurt? That really just... fuck, I didn't know what to do. I've messed it up since then 'cuz I just — I just wanted you to admit it. That you knew me. It drove me crazy. It felt so god damn disrespectful too, not to me but to Haru and Futaba — to everyone you've hurt. I was like, did he learn nothin'?
But that's why I wanted to get ya alone after everything I did. Just. I wanted to tell you, for real, between the both of us, even with everythin' — I want you to get your wish. And I'll do anything I gotta do to help you get it. I'll talk to people. I'll change their minds about ya. Or I'll leave you alone completely and leave you to it. But you deserve it, okay? You deserve that wish, you deserve a fresh start. So, please just, play the game. Let people connect with ya. Get your wish.
[ He's almost out of time. He thinks, briefly, of what Will said — ]
And you're not alone, alright? You got me. I know that means shit to you, and I prolly sound like a hypocrite. But. I didn't tell you any of this to start so how could you have known why I was so upset? So, here I am. Tellin' ya it. And promising you — you got me. I know you don't want me but you got me.
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No, not just that.
[ He takes a breath and then spills into it. Speaking fast, of course. ]
We ain't friends, I know this. I know there's no chance of it happening and I'm sorry for that too, 'cuz during that last semester when you were with us, I got to see your actual personality and it wasn't bad. You were fun to be around and I liked the time I spent with ya in Mementos and everywhere else, when we were a team. I liked you.
So, when I got here, and when I saw that you were on the list of people here, you know what I felt? Excited. It's been a few months for me since ya disappeared after the shit with Maruki. I saw you here and I thought holy shit, you're alive. I thought we'd team up, figure this shit out together. You're so smart, you're so effin' smart, I knew that you'd figure out these matches easy peasy. And I thought I could help ya with that 'cuz I know how to talk to people, a bit more than you do. Genuine talk.
Then — then you pretended you didn't know me and you know how much that hurt? That really just... fuck, I didn't know what to do. I've messed it up since then 'cuz I just — I just wanted you to admit it. That you knew me. It drove me crazy. It felt so god damn disrespectful too, not to me but to Haru and Futaba — to everyone you've hurt. I was like, did he learn nothin'?
But that's why I wanted to get ya alone after everything I did. Just. I wanted to tell you, for real, between the both of us, even with everythin' — I want you to get your wish. And I'll do anything I gotta do to help you get it. I'll talk to people. I'll change their minds about ya. Or I'll leave you alone completely and leave you to it. But you deserve it, okay? You deserve that wish, you deserve a fresh start. So, please just, play the game. Let people connect with ya. Get your wish.
[ He's almost out of time. He thinks, briefly, of what Will said — ]
And you're not alone, alright? You got me. I know that means shit to you, and I prolly sound like a hypocrite. But. I didn't tell you any of this to start so how could you have known why I was so upset? So, here I am. Tellin' ya it. And promising you — you got me. I know you don't want me but you got me.